I to remember the hurt, i used to think it made me stronger, but now as soon as it comes up, i think the bad thoughts away and replace them with love. If i dwell on it, i pitty myself. I don't like that or give it strength. Love and forgiveness is...
October 20
Perry Steinbach just scored 1900 points on Target Shooter: Firing Range.
I'm happy we have wonderful people to play cards with!
I just don't like it when the joker pops up! Wild cards can be fun. If you use them.
Another thought.
I would like to be able to heal people, but can't seem to heal myself.
When my Mom died suddenly, my wife at the time, decided it would be a good time for a divorce. I ended up living in a trailer up in Gold Bar. Went from seeing my kids everyday, to every other weekend. Plus the Courts made me pay 2,200 a month to her and she got the house. For the kids sake it was ok. I didn't have a say in any of it anyway. Well I had another job, mowing lawns to help pay for gas etc. I felt really bad (depressed) and went to the doctor, he put me on antidepressants, well that didn't work to good. After taken those, I didn't care if I paid the bills, or to see my boys. So I quit taken them.A couple of months went by, I was drinking whiskey straight, use it to gargle with. God knows I was hurting and really didn't want to be around anymore. I ended up moving in with Gail, (wife) but my whole life I've lived to be good, and this is how I ended up! . Well one night I went to bed, I prayed, Dear God I don't want to wake up tomorrow, please. I was spent, done for, lost everything. So it seemed. So our Father gave me a wonderful gift, he took me home, I remember following a very bright light. Came to a school or some teaching going on. I was in spirit form, but young and innocent child like), we were leaning forward listening to what looked like Jesus reading out of a book. It was so awesome, (you got me crying) I remember Jesus looking up at me and he closed his book and I started to leave. I was leaving, I had no hands or fingers to grab on to, I wanted to stay soooooooooo bad. But then Gods Holy Spirit filled me and instantly I felt secure, loved beyond want we feel here. I was safe. He Loves Us So much. Can't express to you the Joy, Love, Happiness, Peace, I could go on, but it wouldn't be enough....Awesome.
I also knew I was going somewhere. Leaving Heaven, coming back. Then in another instant, I heard someone say, my two boys names. Ben and Blake. I woke up out of bed, I new everything was going to be fine! God is in control! I looked outside and saw the beautiful trees, and thought, all this, everything is for His Glory.
Every minute of the day I remember the dream (vision). Oh, I still want to go back, because of the love I felt and the security. Death has no hold on me. Quite the opposite. I believe we die (spiritually) at birth, and reborn at death, we go back home...!
But also each one of us has a mission, Gods purpose, most of us go thru life never figuring out that purpose. God sent us his Love Story to us. Everything we need is in it. I've been study the Bible like crazy, trying to get to know him better. Also I don't fear death, I long for it, Heaven is our reward, to be with our Father. I feel our life here is a training ground, for what's to come. Awesome place Heaven is. But I also pray for my eyes and ears to be opened to his word.
I've told my boys this story, told them God said your names to me, brought me back. He has a wonderful plan in store for them, for us. Believe and Pray and give Him the Glory for everything. Study his word, to show ourselves worthy. He had this written for us. Now. I Praise him in the good and the bad. :>) God Bless You and Keep You!
Perry
Note: (We are Blessed)
Pictures with the trees and ferns.
This is the road that goes to our community beach. Ferns grow out of the bark of the trees, makes a pretty picture. These pictures are within 5-10 miles from my place. Hope they Bless you!
When a human being is in pain and suffering, anybody in that position will accept an invitation that suggests the cessation of that suffering. It is common.
However, when we are okay and our life is fabulous to accept an invitation that suggests a journey into the experience of greater soul depth is another matter entirely. Now we say, “But everything is okay, what do I need this journey for?” Now, only a percent of a percent of persons in such situation may stop to reflect and allow themsel… Continue
Posted on September 18, 2009 at 12:17pm — 11 Comments
Yes, i agree, everything in our Fathers timing. I think you have done an excellent job with this site. Time well spent! Hope you are greatly Blessed this day, i'll be praying for you, for that job!
Wow! We had Salmon too! It was So good!!!
Just finish a deck today, work is realy slow. I'm waiting on Fedex for a job.
But it's all good! God knows what he's doing.
Hey check out the new games. Been playing it for 3 hours now! lol
Have a awesome night my brother.
At 11:06am on September 11, 2009, Lynn Belding said…
The song title "Laughing With" artist Regina Spektor. You can get this song anywhere right now. I don't know if you have an account but you don't need one go to youtube.com search videos type the info and watch the video. They also have video with lyrics. This song is all over VH-1, MTV, Itunes, etc. It is a rapidly rising popular music song. In a few months it should be in the top 10. The first time I heard it I really liked it, probably similar to you. Feel free to copy it or any other song from my playlist. The song title "Hello God" is from a 1976 album called Hide Away and can only be purchased on the group's (Brush Arbor) website.
At 3:04am on September 11, 2009, Dottie Clark said…
You summed it up rather well, Perry.. It truly is like coming home.. Where else can you feel the love as you walk in the door? I pray you'll find time to visit more often..
Love, Dottie
At 10:06pm on September 10, 2009, Lynn Belding said…
WOW I didn't know anyone actually listened to my play-list. Cool thanks Perry I really like them myself.
I am so glad you are here... I get too serious too... but when you know... without a shadow of a doubt that life after this life is just plain wonderful... we ought to be making there come here so folks can see more of the light in us... seeing our laughter and joyful living are like minor miracles to those who are lost... and lamp unto their feet... Keep lovin and laughing... so of light...
Y-h bless you and yours
At 9:26pm on September 4, 2009, Dottie Clark said…
Thank you very much Perry.. I should have come in much sooner.. What a
wonderful place to be.. It'll do until we can go to heaven.. Blessings on you
my brother..
Love, Dottie
Thank you for your experience, its very hard to keep going in times of emotional devistation, we are here to learn many lessons, love, loss are strong teachers,I believe one of the hardest is change, but the truth is, everything and everyone changes nothing stays the same or we quit learning!!! hold the vision as your guide, and god bless small miracles that save us from complete devistation1